Author: Jonesy, just a human.

It's 5yrs since I started this blog. now in 2023 I am 56, and already medically retired due to chronic ill health. This site airs my frustrations of how I see our country and world, and how I truly believe it needs to change.

Revolution

There is no democracy in the UK. There are only three viable political parties, sharing one capitalist vision of greed, and controlled by the 1% richest people in Britain along with the equally rich 1% of the rest of the world.
Wealth serves no national flag, it provides a faux democracy with no possible chance of change. The only loyalty this 1% and their snivelling minions have are to greed and corruption.
Our world is staged for us. None of what we believe about government, law or justice is truly real.
The destruction of the socialist Labour Movement 2yrs ago proved that beyond doubt.
The rises in energy bills, fuel and cost of living shows these parasites have no interest in allowing you to live safe, nourished, nurturing lives. They see us and our children as nought but carrion feeding off their scraps.
We really do now need a revolution, now more than any other time in British if not world history.

NHS model

The Guardian, that bastion of the faux left, the acceptable face of the billionairre owned media according to Starmer and his band of saboteurs, published a headline claiming there is no longer any trust in the NHS.
Let’s put this into context.

You have a restaurant with a world class chef. The best sous chefs and an amazing front of house team.
The owners son comes along, as a new manager, and without letting his parents know, he takes away the state of art cookers, replaces them and the fridges with salvage ones from a local tip, he tells the sous chefs and front of house that some of them will have to leave not only the restaurant but the town, he then employs through a company he set up himself, a team of unskilled workers on minimum wage and zero hours contracts. He also sets another company up to sell the restaurant food he himself sources not from the fresh daily markets but from the discount store down the road, yet ensures the restaurant still pays him top price.
The owners still do not know any of this, but have noticed a drop in custom. 

The son by now has ridded his 2001 Ford Focus and is driving around in a 2022 Bentley. 

He now sells off the carpark to another firm he has set up and builds a new restaurant on part of it, but charges customers to his parents £5 to park in the remainder. 

He then employs the original sous chefs that he sacked, to work in his new restaurant but on half their original salary. The prices in his new restaurant are ten times that of his parents restaurant, and after stealing their chef by offering him a higher salary and a company car he also sets up a recipe call line, where the chef writes out some basic meal plans and a call handler sits with a list of food to provide a recipe to those who cannot get a table, ringing in on a premium rate number.

The parents restaurant now is failing, people still having to eat there because they cannot afford the prices of the sons restaurant. But now their choice is for substandard and rotten food, but all the wealthy folk of the town pay top dollar for the food the parents restaurant used to serve. 

The parents still don’t know what’s going on and this their manager son is doing a fabulous job for them despite the hard times.

That is the Conservative Government’s NHS and public service model.

See its simple.
Jonesy

Position of power

Fines for those in Number 10 that arranged, attended or even knew about the pandemic parties is not acceptable. The offence is not just in regard to the pandemic regulations, it is abuse of a position of power.
Do not accept tokenism from the corrupt.

World of war

I am in one of those places where normally I would write about my feelings, stresses and trials, but in this current reality here and across the world there are not millions but billions far far worse off than me.
If I were to die tomorrow I would leave a legacy of two amazing kids. A good number of friends, that is true wealth. not money or riches.
I have the princely sum of £6.17 in my bank until Thursday, but I have food, heating and even a few miles worth of fuel.
I can sit here moaning whilst watching Netflix on my comfy sofa.
I look out of the window and see the sun and the start of the coming spring.
In the UK, however, there are too many folk with nothing in the bank but debt. There are people . cannot afford to heat their houses even though they are ill or have young children or disabilities.
There are human beings, parents, children, grandparents, elderly, employed, retired, unemployed or no longer able to be employed with no food, no transport and no security of continuong to have a roof over their heads.
This is not due to fuel shortages as you are being told is due to a foreign war; it is due to greed, corruption, and ensuring shareholders make profit upon their investments.
Yes, there are issues around gas getting from Russia, but we in the UK have our own, or rather Scotland’s gas and oil fields.
What is happening in the Ukraine is terrible beyond words and made more scary for us because of the risk that we will be wiped out by nuclear weapons, a situation caused in more than a part by an inept tory minister – Liz Truss threatening to Nuke Russia first. An empty threat given our nukes can only be fired with permission from the USA.
Ukraine however is not the only horrifying war right now, the Yemeni people being attacked by the UAE using weapons we in the UK sold them, not because the Yemani were a threat to Saudi Arabia!
Libya 🇱🇾 where we destroyed the entire country because their leader refused to sell their oil for US Dollars, wanting sales to be in gold. So we under the orders of the war criminal, Blair aided the Americans to assassinate Gadaffi by bombing him and then destroy all infrastructure to a stable modern country
Afghanistan 🇦🇫 where we in the eighties condemned Russia 🇷🇺 for invading but then once Russia lost that war, he jumping upon the shirt tails of the Americans invaded ourselves. For humanitarian need? We were told so, but more likely, I and many others believe due to the vast minerals Afghanistan has to offer. Sadly for us and The US, oh and Soviet Russia as it was then, it is too difficult to control the resistance, whether it be political, cultural, or criminal. We quite easily just abandoned Afghanistan to the very people that are responsible for human rights abuses.
Palestine 🇵🇸 is another war torn country, area or state (depending upon who you talk to), where people are being killed daily using weapons the UK have provided, and sadly stemming from UK interference in the region from before we, the British, created the State of Israel 🇮🇱 in the 1940’s.
These are but a few wars right now, we could also mention Iraq 🇮🇶, which still has not stabilised since we again with the United States of America invaded – twice!
The tensions we promote with Iran 🇮🇷, prodding them with sticks.
China 🇨🇳 who we one minute vilify (likely rightly so) on human rights grounds, but then deal with commercially on a huge level.
I could carry on writing all day and not cover half of what is going on in this world right now.
This after two years of a global pandemic of fear.
People cannot, should not and will not take much more.
We have to help the many understand most of the death, pain and torture in this world right now is not due to circumstance or accident, it is planned, thought out and connived purely so the few can control, profiteer and increase their power and hold.
We do not need a world or presidents, dictators and billionaires, we need a world of empathy, support, healthcare, communities, and a good basic, no infact a very good basic standard of living than people can use as a base to make their lives worthwhile.
We need a world where no human is killed, starved or forced to live in poverty due to the actions of country. State, religion, culture, caste, or corruption
Companies should not hold more power than communities
War should not exist and when it does occur a truly ‘United Nations’ of the world should, must step in, not just issue vague statements or reports as the current lip service run UN does.
We live in a world of information, well let’s inform everyone of what we want and need. Stop allowing them to censor or mute us.
Enough is truly enough here in the UK as well as throughout our globe. It’s not workers of the world unite, it has to be People, every one of us of the Earth Unite.
RIGHT NOW

Challenges of the age of social media.

Well today I had a pretty vile and impolite message from someone who sadly is no longer able to interact with me upon here.
The said person claims to currently be a psychotherapist and previously a “high level” journalist.
They believed these job titles would impress me and make me feel some sort of reverence towards them…..sadly not the case.
Their message was bullying at best, wrapped in their pseudo rhetoric, trying to be disguised as knowledge.
They were offended that I see the press as corrupt and bais. Well through years of experience I see just that. It is my opinion based upon action.
This person claims to be a socialist as well as a counsellor but appears to have no empathy for others. Not how I view socialists nor people who make a living supposedly offering support to people with emotional as well as other vulnerabilities.
Sadly the world is full of such people. They truly believe themselves our betters and wear socialism as a badge not a way of life.
They remind me of a storyline from 1980’s Viz.
To me, education, social position, job title, role are not a measure of a person’s worth.
The only way I see myself better than others, would be due to their lack of any morality and their actions against others, their failings to be a human being, with acceptance of their own flaws and a basic level of commitment to at least care about the plight of others.
I am no better than you as you, whether a prince or pauper, you are not likely to be better than me.
People achieve all sorts in life, some more than others. There are many factors from economic position to talent, from drive to lethargy, education to isolation that help us form who we are and give us understanding.
When I write, I put down my views, my understanding based upon my life experience, lessons learned and as much balanced knowledge as I can trust. If I believe there is a lie, my experience informs me it is likely so. Maybe not the best measure ever, but my gut instinct has enabled me to safeguard many vulnerable people in my life journey, both professionally and socially. It informs my judgement.
When I write, I do not expect nor hope that people will not challenge, my real objective is for people to consider my words then find their own voice, whether for or against my own.
Life with the Internet means we all may have a view, that view may be informed by research of all the information we now have at our fingertips, or sadly may be simple based upon some trash story from a lazy reporter, changed at whim by a immoral editor upon the order of a corrupt owner.
Whatever you choose to believe is your choice, but please do not bully others when they have the courage to voice theirs.

War. What is it good for? Feck all.

Let’s be clear, I am no fan of war, I see conflict as a last resort always. I despise the idea of war for profit, whether it be for sales, minerals or imperialism. Any world leader going to war for these reasons has failed and likely as corrupt as his/ her masters.
All the wars the UK has been invited in since WWII have been just that
We do not get involved in war for humanitarian reasons.
I know Ukraine is rich in minerals, gas, uranium and titanium. It holds other wealth and is the base for many vile criminal activities including human trafficking.
The Ukrainian government are I believe right wing extremists. Some have accused them of being fascists. I have no idea, only the info I can glean from a world of disinformation and propaganda.
The Russian government is led by Putin, an ex KGB oligarch. He is not a caring nor a pleasant kind man. He is a greedy egostatistical cruel bully. His government is I believe as corrupt morally and materially as ours.
He is no better than our Primate Minister.
I cannot choose sides of governments in this conflict as, in my view, all are immoral and vile.
I do, however, believe the people of both Russia and Ukraine are against this conflict upon every level.
The sanctions against Russia do not hurt Putin nor his supporters, just the already beleaguered Russian people.
The invasion does not truly threaten the Ukrainian government, again just the people.
So no, I will not display a flag on my profile for Ukraine, nor one for Russia. I will not support the leaders of Britain or the USA for rattling the sabres and censoring the truth.
I support the people being. Killed whether by bombs, guns, or starvation. I support the people stripped of freedom and choice.
I deplore and stand against all the leaders in this conflict, whether the protagonist or the faux diplomat. I abhor the faux free press. I despise the censorship of truth
I am exasperated at those who are unable to look beyond made-up headlines of propaganda.
If we must have enemies, let’s identify the real ones, and they are not the people of Eastern Europe, only their and our leaders.
That simple.

War, who is it good for?

The 40yr Cold War was due to imperialist capitalist countries such as USA, UK, France etc fearing that Comunism would work and spread to end the elitist hold upon their populace.
I don’t know what would have happened if the world had embraced communism in its true form, sadly its likely that it still would have failed due to the inherent greed in humankind, in particular those who make up each countries establishment.
During the Cold War, Russia was deemed to be our enemy, the big ogre who would destroy our world with atomic, nuclear and biological weapons.
Interestingly during this time the investment in ways to kill each other was far higher than even in times we were actually in a fighting war.
The arms industries grew, their shareholders got even more rich and for them all was good for the world, despite the fear we the people had to live with each and every day, the constant but now understood to be faux threat of being bombed in our beds.
Since the Soviet Union broke up we have had new enemies, the Chinese, North Korea, Iran, Iraq, Lydia, Syria….the list goes on. Terrorism has been pushed upon us as a replacement fear, but even that was never as scary as mighty and ‘evil’ Russia.
War or the threat of such has always been the greatest distraction for failed governments and their corrupt leaders.
So now we have the US and the UK waving flags and rattling sabres at the bear all over again. This not due to Communism, no this time because they are creating a new reality by trying to encourage Ukrain to join the NATO military (and economic) alliance, and because Russia. Who have little reason to trust the US and UK, are standing up and saying this is not acceptable, having a traditional enemy recruiting its neighbours and planning to place considerable weapons adjacent to its borders.
Let’s be clear Russia is being pushed into a corner by Biden and Johnson, by doing this only have two motives, profiteering and diversion
They are not bothered about the peoe of Ukraine, in fact they are the ones deliberately putting those people in harms way. They are not trying to keep us or the world safe, they are playing brinkmanship with our lives to serve themselves.
Russia are not are enemy, yes Putin is a dick, possibly the biggest arsehole in Russia, but no more than Biden or indeed Johnson.
Again the only gains in War are to those who profiteer from it.
It truly is that simple.

Poor taste or enabling?

Laughing at the holocaust is not acceptable. Nazism was about “cleansing” the world of people with any difference to others. They use the word “cleansing” to describe ridding the world of the human race’s most valuable asset, divergence.
The cleansing involved torture, murder, rape, dehumanisation, vile experimentation, and stripping of all rights to anyone the nazis considered less than human, untermensch – inferior people, non-aryan.
Predominantly, it was the Jewish people who suffered, but not exclusively, the Gypsy, Roma and Travelling communities, the Disabled, Black people Babies born with what were seen as birth defects along with those who voiced any opposition or supported any different political movement were all victims of this horrific regime.
To single out a group of people and make out they deserved the treatment either then or now imposed upon them by the evil that was National Socialist Germany and their allies in the guise of humour is not only disgusting to those people’s memory but also to the horror everyone who opposed them suffered in the fight for ending the Nazi domination of Europe and other parts of our globe.
Yes humour can be dark, mine often is, but there is an acceptable line, Carr has crossed that and deserves all the ire focused upon him.
No Jimmy you are not funny, you are but another ridiculous has-been. One in the same ilk as Manning, Brown and Davidson. Talentless bigots.
Simple.

Life without point

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Waking each day from the hopes of a night’s dreams, the scars of eight hours of terror, a dark period of dark thoughts, or just with nothing, no memories, no emotions and no motivation.

This kinda sums up a stay upon this earth. This third rock at this brief point in its rotations around whatever this star is actually called by those truly in the know. 

Lethargy guides the ability to prioritise, that and brain fog, the forgetting not just what to do but the how to do too.

There is no sparkle of excitement of any future one can envision. The entire meaning of being here beces so much more elusive each day

 I personally tire of hate, of cruelty but mostly of apathy. I crave the ability to change this corruption dying civilisation. If you can call the human members of it civilised. 

The struggle now is to find any excuse to remain, to function, to integrate. A battle physically holding the prospective tools of any planned demise, each time weighing the pro’s of being here against the balancing saving of this worlds resources by being gone.

Every day I really do feel so frustrated that up to now I have chosen to remain, promising myself tomorrow I may become more ruthless with my reckoning.

Let’s be clear, I am still here, it’s not a cry for help, it is simply my explaining how I see myself right now. 

There may be new hope tomorrow, a signpost down a new path. There may not be…..

The huge grey clouds that hide all but the magnolia walls of this, my gaol along with the stark black rusting iron shackles that bind me to the breathing of what counts for air, may yet part, actually showing me streams of light sent to guide me to the promised pasture guaranteed to our children as we hold them for the first time. 

The layers of dust that fill my cell like sand settling after a desert storm, undisturbed by any metaphorical movement within my dulled mind, already devoid of ant true expectation of change. 

Do I feel a tear escape my painful eyes, blurring the view and in its own way giving brief distraction from the guilt held by the adult persona who betrayed the child within so many eons ago.

Do I live in hope? Does hope exist beyond the irony of the Peak village who’s name gives lie to the word?

How will tomorrow be? Will I be forced to wake once more into the landscape of some demons waiting room? To be once more tortured with thought of what may once have been but can no longer be? Or will my courage wear thin, and I use my chosen weapons to end this daily drudgery that is my meagre existence.

 

Foot note

This does not reflect my life all the time, it is a description of how my anxieties, my triggers, my pain, my depression manifests in my being. There are even now days even weeks that this becomes my routine, but I do escape too, and it’s those days of hope that reinforce my right to be here, to be part of this world.

The hope I have to draw upon is through the support of those closest to me, those who understand and see me.

There are no words to describe the darkest of days, this is only a prose touching upon the mixture of angst and nothingness so at odds with each other.

The brighter days this note would seem to have no bearing upon my life, but the thing about any hidden illness is we become skilled at hiding it.

All of us have our perspectives upon things like pain, upset, low mood to suicidal tendency.

Some folk may threaten to take their own lives for effect, but often even if you believe that to be the case you may not realise the turmoil that person lives with  what we believe to be attention  seeking behaviours are more often than not an indicator some war is being waged within that person and we may be completely oblivious to the factors they are trying to cope with. 

I do at times sit with a hand clutching my insulin pens and a bottle of morphine, but each time I find a reason to bat on.  Not yet ready to concede.

This is however not just my story, it is the story of tens of thousands of people in the UK living with chronic health, with grief, with poverty, with so many other triggers of that urge not to be here.

So please don’t be as quick to judge someone, stop with the collusion of press , government and TV producers who will give lie to the struggle people really do face each day. 

It’s hard in a word of cruelty to give kindness and offer support. We are all guilty of ignoring people in need, but maybe the next day you ignore them will be the last. 

Jonesy

@trikerpoet

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