Well last night saw kids, my best friend and my folks. Went out for my dad’s birthday. Was lovely. My Xmas done now so free to have a lazy time without stress. No pressure or commercialism. It’s been perfect.
If we’ll enough Weds I am getting bike out and just riding til I have to turn back. No idea Thursday yet. I am so glad it’s worked out like this now. I have no expectations so no disappointment. No pressure so no pain. A few days to myself without worry of a knock on the door or a threatening letter. It actually for the first time for me ever might do me some good.
Even house is fairly tidy.
Still scared about my brother but can’t change things for him at the moment. Until he accepts help what will be will be sadly.
I am more worried about the ongoing effects on my folks. Again all I can do is be there if needed.
I have had to come to terms with not changing the world yet but now I have joined the British Association of Journalists I might have more of a voice to effect some change through writing the truth.
Today is a positive day and I am hopeful for the first time in a while that I can turn at least some aspects of my life around. I cannot make myself well. I cannot run a marathon nor walk up a hill. I cannot just cheer up, man up or chin up. Things won’t be better in the morning. I will I fear always live in constant pain and can likely never take a job even part time but I can and will write. I will share my plight and that of others. I can through my experience and the words within me hold this government, society and individuals to account.
Facebook is no longer my only forum.
So anyway I digress. For those of my friends celebrating either the Christian meaning of Christmas, or just following the commercial god of greed please have a wonderful time. My thoughts are truly with you.
For the rest of us let’s wish peace and true caring. Let’s pass on our empathy and understanding to others. Even a simple smile or acknowledgement that you recognise another as being human too can make all the difference.
If you pass a Homeless person on the street don’t just throw money at them, stop, smile and make eye contact, ask them how they are, you might be surprised at the person you meet.
But if you see someone being rude or arrogant, you know the type. I won’t waste time describing their affluence, their attitude then challenge them. If they push you or others speak out. If they are aggressive and self important put them in their place. Show them that humanity does exist, that manners do maketh the humane human. That only the obtuce such as them deserve ridicule.
It’s those little things that are important right now, not wealth or materialism, just humanism.
Well how I see things anyway.
So merry Xmas or not, we all care and please never feel isolated or alone. Me and so many others are here if you need us.
Like I said my Xmas is done, so if you are feeling like you need to shout, scream, cry, laugh or just talk I am here for anyone that needs me. Only ever at the end of the phone. Just be careful though you may end up with a big biker knocking on your door to just pass on that smile.
Take care folks