Death or fight!

Today I received a letter from Kingsmill Hospital, in regard to the referral my GP made in October 2021. The appointment I have been given is for mid June 2022.
This was after I finally managed to get through to their appointments team, given I had been ringing them almost daily since December 2021 and have only last week finally got through.
It was also after explaining my circumstances to them, to Patient Advice and Liaison (PALS) and them taking it not to a clinician but a business team.
When I spoke to them I explained my blood sugars range daily from 3 to 33mml. That this poor control is due to medication and effects of my other illnesses. That I have had consultant’s in diabetes, crohns and pain management look at how to gain better control.
I explained on top of this I have neuropathy (biggest cause of amputation in UK) which along with other conditions brings about severe constant pain and quite often a quality of life that makes me question why I carry on.
So it will be 9 months from referral to appointment (if they do not cancel it) before I am seen
In the mean time I continue to use insulin, in high dises, ozempic in highest dose, along with my other medications without any support or consultation.
Yes my GP surgery try to help but sadly with the complication factors of my other illnesses, the nurses and doctors openly admit they are out of their depth.
Now I was able to finally get to speak to someone, I had the ability to put my needs forward, to insist in being heard. Sadly many cannot. Many may have to rely on support worker to try to ring as and when they can, others on family or friends and many with no support nor ability
I am not blaming the clinicians. The call handles, PALS or even the business team, the fault is 100% on this government, on previous governments including that of “New Labour’ the party run by Blair and emulated with such vigor by Starmer and Raynor.
The Conservatives and neoliberalism of the UK, the capitalists, the shareholders of corporations here and in the USA, in France, Germany and even Russian and China all want a profit from the breakup of the NHS.
The NHS was set up to protect the people, to ensure we in the UK had not just a basic but groundbreaking health service to ensure we were kept as well as could be. When it was set up it was to give us support and care from birth to death. It was not perfect, but it was the pride of Britain and the envy of the world. There was no postcode lottery on services (until Thatcher then Blair) there was a reliable efficient service that meant injury and illness were not going to break families, not cause poverty, pain, or undue suffering
But greed and corruption was introduced by Thatcher, by Blair and every subsequent government and most ministers.
Now the NHS breathes the final breaths of a dying monolith. It will be remembered by those of us lucky enough to have been able to rely on it, with affection, pride and sadly loss
I am but one person of approximately 68,000,000 living in the UK. I am not in the worst of positions, unlike my 35yr old brother who died in extreme pain over a period of years, due to being unsupported and failed with his medication, no support and even improper diagnosis of his of diabetes 2yrs ago leaving behind his 8yr old son, I am still alive – for now.
We cannot let this continue any longer, the destruction of the NHS must be stopped, those theives and robbers that call thieves MP’s held to account. Private health shut down. Health care is not a luxury. Since the 1940’s in the UK its been our birthright. Do not let them take that from us,not now or ever!

Melt down of NHS

Kings Mill Hospital in Mansfield, Nottinghamshire had a referral for me, from my GP, in October 2021. I have managed to get through today for the first time in 6 months of calling, only to be told the team are not yet looking at October 2021 referrals and would be another three months at least for an appointment.
I was then put through to the complaints team. I explained my diabetes was out of control due to my other illnesses. I told him I was not just concerned about me but all the other people awaiting a response, the call handler clearly responded that my case is not urgent.
With blood sugars going from 3mml to 33mml I beg to differ. The neuropathic pain gives a different story as does the pain management consultant.
I asked the call handler if he was clinically trained, he said no. I pointed out,that, then he was not qualified to give a opinion or make a decision and asked him why he had. He fumbled a vague answer without actually answering.
I explained that I had been referred to Kingsmill due to chesterfield Royal Hospital letting my brother down and likely being complicit in the events leading to his death due to diabetes. I also pointed out that I too had been let down before and after Robert died, by the staff at Chesterfield Royal Hospital diabetes team which is why I was being referred to Kingsmill.
He then offered the ‘options’, I could make a complaint ‘or’ (not and) get an faster appointment.
I again pointed out that yes I need an appointment but so do all the others referred 6 months or more ago that have had no response.
He did not it seems understand this.
At the beginning of the call I advised I was recording the call, as my brain fog often leaves me forgetful of points.
I am beyond frustrated that despite the death of my brother and countless others, despite the massively life changing effects to the detrement of those with diabetes, that people continue to be so let down.
Diabetes is but one major cause of death in the UK, however, it also likely is the major cause of amputation, it is a serious cause of blindness, kidney disease, depression, anxiety, along with other mental health problems that people have to live with.
No one should be let down by the health service at all, this is the 21st Century and medicine could easily deal with so many health issues, disease, disability, it does not however, not due to lack of ability, but to lack of resources caused by greed and enforced poverty.
We sit here worrying about wars in other areas in the world but accept the symptomatic death and suffering caused by consecutive British governments since and before WWII.
Again there are many other areas of medicine including cancer and heart disease that people, ourselves, our friends and to many, more importantly our family are being sacrificed upon the excuses of lack of resources but the reality of greed and corruption.
People may say diabetes, cancer or heart disease (along with all the other diseases, conditions and disabilities) are not political, my answer is ‘bullshit’, politics causes and sustains poverty, and poverty is the biggest cause of all chronic ill health.
This needs to change now and stop the government’s privatisation agenda in its tracks.
People must come before the Conservatives profiteering.

Ultimate confidence trick

We live in an age of energy saving. We have energy saving light bulbs as standard,supposed to cost a fraction of the old filament ones, we have fridges, freezers, cookers, microwaves and boilers that generally are energy rating A – C, meaning low energy use.
Despite these obvious cuts in a homes energy use, families and individuals are living in fuel poverty. They are scared to turn on a light, frightened to cook food, if they can afford to buy food that is, turning fridges and freezers down or off, causing increased risk of food perishing or being poisoned, and shaking with cold in their own grime because they can afford to hoover, or even bath.
Sounds a bit over the top? No sadly for many ot isn’t, if you are not experiencing some or all of these issues then count yourself lucky.
So do with have a true breakdown of fuel costs from the suppliers? I haven’t found one from them or out government.
How much of the cost of has, electricity, water, or even petrol and diesel is tax, how much is due to the manufacturing of the energy, the maintaining of machines, how much the transportation and just how much the immense profits the shareholders are currently being seen to receive?
What is a supplier? Well they do not actually make nor even supply your fuel, they simply own the meter (which they don’t fit, you pay for that if it needs replacing).
They are simply a payroll department that collects the money we pay, and pays the tax, covers the basic cost of the fuel and then pays the shareholders out.
They are not ‘green’ despite their claims, they are a fake company that basically has been placed in the link to profiteer.
It’s a true privatisation model.
They do not source the fuel, with electric that is the role of the national grid (now also a private company owned abroad), they are an admin team that has no need to exist beyond dealing out profits that they make from us.
It’s the most simple con ever.
And guess what? We are the marks, the victims of this fantastically corrupt confidence trick.
Hope we all feel better knowing we line the pockets of the super rich yet again.

Death of my brother

Today the inept solicitor managing the case of my brothers death has informed me that because he has not done his job, because the hospital and NHS have covered up since my brothers death that the barrister, who was only provided with half the evidence due to these reasons believes there is only a 40 – 50% chance of success in the court, therefore he is dropping the case and stopping the insurance funding.
Because of the 3yr rule beyond the 28th December no case can be heard, so even with a second solicitors advice this waste of air has prevented any further action
I am therefore going to write it all. I will be including the names of the solicitor, his company, the doctors, nurses, mental health, local police and social service staff, and even friends and so called family in law, that let Robert down and were complicit in the pain he suffered and subsequent death.
I will name those who truly tried to help him to survive, his friends, the armed police team and ambulance that fought with their all to keep him alive.
I will write all I can evidence, from the original GP failings to the ward staff who did not understand aggression is a factor of high blood sugar, kidney failure and raised keytone. These staff who enabled him to walk out of the hospital despite a section, later saying they ‘lost’ the paperwork.
I have no savings, no house, no property. Nothing they can realistically sue me for.
I do have my language, intelligence and my ability to write.
I will tell my brothers story with all the names of all that led him to his end. All of them.
I have all the files to refer to.
He was failed time and time again.

The day trust died

If you were robbed in the street you would want (with a high degree of futility) the police to identify, catch and peosecute the thieves.
You would want them locked up.

Well sadly we are being robbed every day. Petrol, council tax, food, essentials all going up in price, but today the government have enabled what we’re once our own services – gas, water and electricity – now private companies (not actually supplying the gas, electricity and water, just administrating our bills) to steal everything from some of us.

Their actions today will cause poverty for tens of millions of people in the UK.

Is this to reward the hard work these companies put in? No it’s to reward their shareholders. To ensure their profits continue to increase well above any standard rate of inflation.

Is it lawful? It shouldn’t be, but when did that ever prevent the rich from profiteering?

So when you see that person begging on the street, remember you who voted Conservative, you who betrayed your own personal family history, your communities, your class, caste, allowed this to happen, as did all those within the Labour Party who betrayed us from within.

Today proves democracy is dead

Today there should be no trust in government.

Today there should be no trust in any presumption of democracy.

Today is when our faith in our country should truly die.


There is no democracy in the UK. There are only three viable political parties, sharing one capitalist vision of greed, and controlled by the 1% richest people in Britain along with the equally rich 1% of the rest of the world.
Wealth serves no national flag, it provides a faux democracy with no possible chance of change. The only loyalty this 1% and their snivelling minions have are to greed and corruption.
Our world is staged for us. None of what we believe about government, law or justice is truly real.
The destruction of the socialist Labour Movement 2yrs ago proved that beyond doubt.
The rises in energy bills, fuel and cost of living shows these parasites have no interest in allowing you to live safe, nourished, nurturing lives. They see us and our children as nought but carrion feeding off their scraps.
We really do now need a revolution, now more than any other time in British if not world history.

NHS model

The Guardian, that bastion of the faux left, the acceptable face of the billionairre owned media according to Starmer and his band of saboteurs, published a headline claiming there is no longer any trust in the NHS.
Let’s put this into context.

You have a restaurant with a world class chef. The best sous chefs and an amazing front of house team.
The owners son comes along, as a new manager, and without letting his parents know, he takes away the state of art cookers, replaces them and the fridges with salvage ones from a local tip, he tells the sous chefs and front of house that some of them will have to leave not only the restaurant but the town, he then employs through a company he set up himself, a team of unskilled workers on minimum wage and zero hours contracts. He also sets another company up to sell the restaurant food he himself sources not from the fresh daily markets but from the discount store down the road, yet ensures the restaurant still pays him top price.
The owners still do not know any of this, but have noticed a drop in custom. 

The son by now has ridded his 2001 Ford Focus and is driving around in a 2022 Bentley. 

He now sells off the carpark to another firm he has set up and builds a new restaurant on part of it, but charges customers to his parents £5 to park in the remainder. 

He then employs the original sous chefs that he sacked, to work in his new restaurant but on half their original salary. The prices in his new restaurant are ten times that of his parents restaurant, and after stealing their chef by offering him a higher salary and a company car he also sets up a recipe call line, where the chef writes out some basic meal plans and a call handler sits with a list of food to provide a recipe to those who cannot get a table, ringing in on a premium rate number.

The parents restaurant now is failing, people still having to eat there because they cannot afford the prices of the sons restaurant. But now their choice is for substandard and rotten food, but all the wealthy folk of the town pay top dollar for the food the parents restaurant used to serve. 

The parents still don’t know what’s going on and this their manager son is doing a fabulous job for them despite the hard times.

That is the Conservative Government’s NHS and public service model.

See its simple.

Position of power

Fines for those in Number 10 that arranged, attended or even knew about the pandemic parties is not acceptable. The offence is not just in regard to the pandemic regulations, it is abuse of a position of power.
Do not accept tokenism from the corrupt.

World of war

I am in one of those places where normally I would write about my feelings, stresses and trials, but in this current reality here and across the world there are not millions but billions far far worse off than me.
If I were to die tomorrow I would leave a legacy of two amazing kids. A good number of friends, that is true wealth. not money or riches.
I have the princely sum of £6.17 in my bank until Thursday, but I have food, heating and even a few miles worth of fuel.
I can sit here moaning whilst watching Netflix on my comfy sofa.
I look out of the window and see the sun and the start of the coming spring.
In the UK, however, there are too many folk with nothing in the bank but debt. There are people . cannot afford to heat their houses even though they are ill or have young children or disabilities.
There are human beings, parents, children, grandparents, elderly, employed, retired, unemployed or no longer able to be employed with no food, no transport and no security of continuong to have a roof over their heads.
This is not due to fuel shortages as you are being told is due to a foreign war; it is due to greed, corruption, and ensuring shareholders make profit upon their investments.
Yes, there are issues around gas getting from Russia, but we in the UK have our own, or rather Scotland’s gas and oil fields.
What is happening in the Ukraine is terrible beyond words and made more scary for us because of the risk that we will be wiped out by nuclear weapons, a situation caused in more than a part by an inept tory minister – Liz Truss threatening to Nuke Russia first. An empty threat given our nukes can only be fired with permission from the USA.
Ukraine however is not the only horrifying war right now, the Yemeni people being attacked by the UAE using weapons we in the UK sold them, not because the Yemani were a threat to Saudi Arabia!
Libya 🇱🇾 where we destroyed the entire country because their leader refused to sell their oil for US Dollars, wanting sales to be in gold. So we under the orders of the war criminal, Blair aided the Americans to assassinate Gadaffi by bombing him and then destroy all infrastructure to a stable modern country
Afghanistan 🇦🇫 where we in the eighties condemned Russia 🇷🇺 for invading but then once Russia lost that war, he jumping upon the shirt tails of the Americans invaded ourselves. For humanitarian need? We were told so, but more likely, I and many others believe due to the vast minerals Afghanistan has to offer. Sadly for us and The US, oh and Soviet Russia as it was then, it is too difficult to control the resistance, whether it be political, cultural, or criminal. We quite easily just abandoned Afghanistan to the very people that are responsible for human rights abuses.
Palestine 🇵🇸 is another war torn country, area or state (depending upon who you talk to), where people are being killed daily using weapons the UK have provided, and sadly stemming from UK interference in the region from before we, the British, created the State of Israel 🇮🇱 in the 1940’s.
These are but a few wars right now, we could also mention Iraq 🇮🇶, which still has not stabilised since we again with the United States of America invaded – twice!
The tensions we promote with Iran 🇮🇷, prodding them with sticks.
China 🇨🇳 who we one minute vilify (likely rightly so) on human rights grounds, but then deal with commercially on a huge level.
I could carry on writing all day and not cover half of what is going on in this world right now.
This after two years of a global pandemic of fear.
People cannot, should not and will not take much more.
We have to help the many understand most of the death, pain and torture in this world right now is not due to circumstance or accident, it is planned, thought out and connived purely so the few can control, profiteer and increase their power and hold.
We do not need a world or presidents, dictators and billionaires, we need a world of empathy, support, healthcare, communities, and a good basic, no infact a very good basic standard of living than people can use as a base to make their lives worthwhile.
We need a world where no human is killed, starved or forced to live in poverty due to the actions of country. State, religion, culture, caste, or corruption
Companies should not hold more power than communities
War should not exist and when it does occur a truly ‘United Nations’ of the world should, must step in, not just issue vague statements or reports as the current lip service run UN does.
We live in a world of information, well let’s inform everyone of what we want and need. Stop allowing them to censor or mute us.
Enough is truly enough here in the UK as well as throughout our globe. It’s not workers of the world unite, it has to be People, every one of us of the Earth Unite.

Challenges of the age of social media.

Well today I had a pretty vile and impolite message from someone who sadly is no longer able to interact with me upon here.
The said person claims to currently be a psychotherapist and previously a “high level” journalist.
They believed these job titles would impress me and make me feel some sort of reverence towards them…..sadly not the case.
Their message was bullying at best, wrapped in their pseudo rhetoric, trying to be disguised as knowledge.
They were offended that I see the press as corrupt and bais. Well through years of experience I see just that. It is my opinion based upon action.
This person claims to be a socialist as well as a counsellor but appears to have no empathy for others. Not how I view socialists nor people who make a living supposedly offering support to people with emotional as well as other vulnerabilities.
Sadly the world is full of such people. They truly believe themselves our betters and wear socialism as a badge not a way of life.
They remind me of a storyline from 1980’s Viz.
To me, education, social position, job title, role are not a measure of a person’s worth.
The only way I see myself better than others, would be due to their lack of any morality and their actions against others, their failings to be a human being, with acceptance of their own flaws and a basic level of commitment to at least care about the plight of others.
I am no better than you as you, whether a prince or pauper, you are not likely to be better than me.
People achieve all sorts in life, some more than others. There are many factors from economic position to talent, from drive to lethargy, education to isolation that help us form who we are and give us understanding.
When I write, I put down my views, my understanding based upon my life experience, lessons learned and as much balanced knowledge as I can trust. If I believe there is a lie, my experience informs me it is likely so. Maybe not the best measure ever, but my gut instinct has enabled me to safeguard many vulnerable people in my life journey, both professionally and socially. It informs my judgement.
When I write, I do not expect nor hope that people will not challenge, my real objective is for people to consider my words then find their own voice, whether for or against my own.
Life with the Internet means we all may have a view, that view may be informed by research of all the information we now have at our fingertips, or sadly may be simple based upon some trash story from a lazy reporter, changed at whim by a immoral editor upon the order of a corrupt owner.
Whatever you choose to believe is your choice, but please do not bully others when they have the courage to voice theirs.